Gratitude...

"Spiritual growth is about confronting fear in order to attain wonderment" so says my "women's spirit daily meditation book".
There were days during my one particular work adventure at a certain institution, when I needed my daily meditation book more then a cigarette in order to keep some levels of hope and sanity. It worked. It enbeled me to find something wonderous about each of those days in which my life was going through complete transition and I needed to let go all fear in order to be able to throw my arms around the concept of complete and utter uncertainty. As short time of unemployment followed, I kept on repeating Anais Nin's mantra "LIFE SHRINKS AND EXPANDS IN PROPORTION TO ONE's COURAGE." Now, I am GRATEFUL to have met many wonderous women who perhaps have never read this quote, but lived there lives accordingly. They are my inspiration today, as I am sitting in front of my computer, feeling a bit lost within the matrix of work related e-mails and heavy with the first wave of that true Roman heat. Uncertainty is always difficult...but also liberating not to know exactely what will happen at the next turn...

This philosophical psycho bubble is the result of driving my scooter under 38 celcius midday heat feeling as my brain is risking damage under the 50 celcsius heated up helmet...

but then I got that wind blowing in my face...
and a sense of trust.

This is just to acknowledge how happy I am to be alife, to be where i am, to be in Rome on this warm summer day. Yes, to even be in the air conditioned office.